Caution: Writer’s Block Ahead

        I get the feeling a lot of the time that I know there is something in my brain that I want to write about but I have no frigging idea what it is!  That is a tough place to be when you are primarily a writer.  I envy the people I know who have multiple modalities through which to express themselves.

       Committing to 4-5 posts a week on Free Range Brain is TERRIFYING…I mean what if I can’t do that many? What if they suck and don’t make sense to anyone?  What if I really don’t have that much to say?  What if I can’t think of anything to say…you get the idea.  A lot of the time I feel like there is a glimmer of something and then as quick as I think I see it, it’s gone again.  I feel like I can’t hold onto thoughts or even get them to fully coalesce.  I have felt like this for a long time now.  Every now & then for a few hours or a day here and there it will come together and then *poof* gone again.

I kid you not I have actually wondered if I have Alzheimer’s early.  My wonderful pal Vee said to me that she thinks it has “more to do with the transitions you’re going through and the stress in your life”.  I know she’s right and I do agree but I feel like I have lost my damned mind a lot of the time.  Like it just left and went to Fiji or somewhere nice leaving me to fend for myself.

      So, a big thing I am trying to work on is to just start writing, let it flow as best it can and not worry overly about getting it “perfect”.  Life is an imperfect process and I know I can’t and won’t get it “just right” because there is no such thing.  Part of this whole journey is just letting it flow, letting the way it really is in my head show and reach out.