Wandering but Not Alone

I haven’t had much to say of late (please do pick yourselves up off the ground). Not because there’s nothing going on in my life, quite the opposite really. I have so many good things in my life at the moment and am so very grateful. In the midst of all of the great things I am still struggling with all of the meds for my OCD and trying to re-learn behaviors (nothing new to us in this crowd lol) and readjust to the way that my brain works with this stuff…or doesn’t work.

I have sat down so many times to write something and then I just sit here staring at the screen and feeling like my mind has left me and gone on vacation to Tahiti or somewhere, the traitor. I feel like I don’t have much to report, share or talk about a lot of the time even though logically I know that’s not true. I just can’t get my brain to click into gear it feels like.

So I finally figured I would just say that I am still here, I am working my programs, going to meetings, reading posts (even if I don’t comment much), talking to folks in recovery, doing service work, looking for work, dating (holy mackerel lol) and working to get my brain on track crosses fingers.

Thank you to those of you who check in and poke me occasionally to make sure I am still kicking. lol