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21 Years of Gratitude

Thursday, 19 October 2017

Today marks 7670 days clean & sober for me. That’s 21yrs for anyone trying to calculate that at home. (I cheated & used that info from an email someone sent me today. lol)

I am so very mindful of the miracles in my life the last 21yrs and even before that. It is miraculous that I lived to get clean; I shouldn’t have with all the chemicals I was mixing in my body and the dangerous, risky situations I put myself in. But I did live and I have thrived slowly but surely through the years. I am grateful for every singe second of my life; the hellacious to the blissfully joyous. Each and every second has brought me to where I am now.

Even when I am struggling in my life I know on a deep cellular level that it will work out. It may not work out exactly how I think it should but it will be ok. I know this because I was not supposed to live to see 21 much less 45. My higher power did not bring me this far to drop me on my ass now. If I remain open, keep learning, growing and doing the footwork then it will all work out just as it should.

It has taken a few villages to raise this kid in sobriety and I am grateful for each and every one of you today and every day. This chip & prayer are from me to all of you, past & present who have been with me on this journey, whether for a few minutes or many years.

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Prayer to the Great Spirit

Oh, Great Spirit,
whose voice I hear in the winds
and whose breath gives life to all the world, hear me.
I am small and weak.
I need your strength and wisdom.

Let me walk in beauty and make my eyes
ever behold the red and purple sunset.
Make my hands respect the things you have made
and my ears sharp to hear your voice.
Make me wise so that I may understand
the things you have taught my people.
Let me learn the lessons you have hidden
in every leaf and rock.

I seek strength, not to be superior to my brother,
but to fight my greatest enemy – myself.
Make me always ready to come to you
with clean hands and straight eyes,
so when life fades, as the fading sunset,
my spirit will come to you
without shame.

One Comment leave one →
  1. Tuesday, 28 November 2017 5:36 pm

    Wow! Congratulations! That’s is amazing!


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